Random Act of Sillyness...

ok,

well today, I was sitting at my desk at the radio station, and decided I wanted a cup, no I NEEDED a cup of coffee (Decaff thank you very much)... sooo I proceeded downstairs to the cafeteria, Mind you, this is a college campus and so things get goofy anyway,

getting back to my journey into the cafeteria, I passed the lost and found booth, they really have a BOOTH, lol, i will have to get a pic of it and post it.... anyhow,

I went up to the dude who looked like he had lost his puppy himself.. and proceeded as follows...

Me: xcuse me
Him: hi how can I help you
Me: I hope you can I lost my mind maybe someone turned it in...

there was a brief pause and then he laughed and said
"HUH HUH good one man!"

so with that I feel as though I have done my good deed for today..

So Much For Un-Biased in the media

OK, now this really Bugs me..

The Philadelphia Inquirer Paper has officially Endorsed Senator Obama and Sen McCain..

I thought Journalists were supposed to report the news and keep thier own opinions to themselves??

*shrugs and scampers off to find a corner in my room to sit and rock back and forth in* (joke)

Vision for Change

was going through my folders and found this, thought id share

I think that:


you dream from left to right and you manifest from right to left... in the midpoint, is true happieness

so happiness is somewhere in the middle betwwen dreams and reality lol



my own personal hell, and why i am here, and how i can break free..


gee the moon is beautiful tonight,

I think that if we all create our own hells, and life IS hell,
then the hell we all create for yourselves out of the bricks we make in life..

but why did I choose to use cement, why not marble, why not gold, why not love, why not helping others?...

because how can I have love in my heart for others when i dont have in in my heart for me...
its like a coldness.. when you look deep inside our yourself, and see how rotton you have treated yourself....
all becuase you dont love yourself for one or more reasons... (depending oun your past expierences)
so I am letting go of my past, for I am renewed, reborn....
I love myself, i dont feel the coldness anymore, only the coldness from the draft in my window,
which is also carrying with it devine light from God , God by the way is all around me too :)
he says HI ... He Loves me, so oooooo now wait, here we go............

the love of the lord....... If I dont love myself...and we all are "god" ....then I would venture to say that...
loving myself would be to have the love of the lord, and Joy...
lord, God, I want that love in my life.... I want to share it with others,
I want to love others as you love me, then I can use marble, or gold, yes those will be my bricks...
I will make magnificent bricks and make cement ones no more, for the cement bricks have no life in them...
and i will make a wonderful life, yes this will be my new heaven,

Time to Switch DR's

So to update, My friend went with me to the Dr's today and when it came my turn to go back into the office he told her that she couldnt come back... I explained to him in clear terms that I brought her with me to provide an objective perspective on what was going on.. Obviously I trusted her enough that I didnt think she would say anything mallicious that would have resulted in my being placed in a psych program or something like that or I would not have brought her...

I explained that I wanted her there because it is recomended that you have a friend or family member go with from time to time ... also I wanted her there to observe him and get her opinion on him...

I was having my doubts about him, and after today I am certain that im switching dr's.. for one, he would not shake her hand and got really nervous , I mean red in the face nervous.. and then once he got me back in the office he sorta slammed the door and still nervous, he said "I don't know her so that was why I didnt let her back" I replied "but I do, I trust her to give an accurate objective perspective and explained that it was reccomended that you bring a friend or family member" his reply was "yeah I know, Ive read that , but im not into that, It's not my thing dude" that pretty much sealed his fate... I just took my scripts and went on my merry way...

Jan 22 update

I know I havent updated in a while, Ive been busy.. Shooting and editing video, Researching video.. and working on a few other projects.. Im kinda nervous about my DR's appt tomorrow.. I have a friend going with me because I am not good with expressing things and I would probably get it all wrong..

not feeling as good as I should be. having trouble focusing, and even during conversations I loose my train of thought... or I would say things in the wrong context and give people the wrong idea of what I really want to say... so for the past week ive sorta avoided important conversations because of this.. my sister, my friends, .... this is not me.. i feel like a clod..

I've been off my medication for 3 weeks now, couldnt get it renewed because you have to see the dr every 6 months.. I had to take off saturday, sunday and monday , did so at the advice of a friend because she observed things that I didnt even notice..

im sleepy alot and spacey... Im glad I have someone to go with me because I wouldnt know how to explain all this to the DR, I have trouble even talking to her about it because the words fail...

she has been helping me eat healthier and i feel alot better, but i know i have a long way to go

Getting a Handle on My Finances

Well, apparently my credit is not as horrible as it seems. Yes my score is an embarrasing 520 but that is easily remedied.. There are 2 items which are acting like a ball and chain and keeping my score down... the total amount between the two items is about $1,500.

and so, I set a goal to clear BOTH Items by march of this year.. Plus I am doing things to show a payment history, (secured credit card from my bank, and a few other things...)

Will check my score again in April to see how clearing the two items, plus timely payments of credit card and other items have improved my score...

I have a short term goal of buying my first home within 5 years... Being I am a veteran I could get a discount through the VA, but I have been advised to clear up the bad stuff and bring up my score before even thinking about applying... not only that, you typically need to have 20% of the cost of the home to use as a down payment which means I would need to have that in savings in addition to my normal 3 months salary emergency fund (which I had to dip into last week)

I have decided to Blog this so I can track my progress and also if anyone else happens to read this they can learn from my trial and errors...

Senator Clinton Goes Door to Door!

I think this is something that we should see more often. I feel too many candiates are taking the "elitest position" by thinking they are too good for the old fashioned campaigning activities.. ie.. Kissing Babies, and going door to door etc...

Play of the day: Hillary door-to-door